It's been a pretty tough 5days for me, I drove down to LA on Sunday to take Kaila to the airport. It's never an easy day when she has to fly away... the flight attendants have the responsibility of watching over Kaila because she flies alone, but I know she's safe and she's going to a safe place, she gets to spend time with her paternal family that loves her very much. At the airport we had spurts of tears and when the staff announced it was time to board Kaila had spurts of hyperventilating because she was crying so hard; looking around after hearing the "aw poor baby whispers" from the lobby I see tears coming from other ladies eyes watching us say our goodbyes. It's not easy and will never get easier (I know this because I had to go through the same thing growing up)... IT DOES NOT GET EASIER, but we have to remind ourselves of the positive and that is "She gets to travel the country "what kid gets to fly alone 4times a year across the country "KAILA" also her dad wants to be in her life and I would never take that from him, it's a happy thing to have the opportunity to bond with her dad, little sister and paternal side of the family" some kids aren't as lucky as her, some kids aren't even given the opportunity to bond with the other parent/family. When Kaila's plane landed she called me from the airplane as it was taxi'ing in to the terminal and she was happy as can be, she was excited to tell me who her new friends were on her plane (the couple sitting next to her) LOL. It gets tough for her when she leaves with her dad from the airport, because her mind starts to wonder "why is my mommy not here" she called a couple more times the night she got there, but those calls were tearful conversations, because she was confused. I knew after she got a good night sleep, she'd wake up to all her paternal family and the tears would be forgotten. It's been 5days and I haven't heard from her, but I got a sweet text from her dad this morning (a much needed text, because I'm feeling broken right now)... it said "I think Kaila will be excited on Christmas, Santa told me he got her an American doll :-) I am going to have her call you soon she misses you. Hope all is well" I really appreciate the message I got from him and it couldn't have come at a better time "Thank You!" Kaila's dad & I have had an extremely rough 7years "court after court" but this last year he has finally realized that I am not out to hurt him and that I am only looking out for the well-being of all three of our hearts and I also know now that his thoughts are the same. I'll never forget the phone call I got from him last year apologizing for everything, that was a turning point in our life and we have the utmost respect for each other now. The roller coaster is over with him and has been over for a year now and I know it will stay over, because we have both stuck with our word "do what's best for our children and all will fall into place" I'm very thankful he is in Kaila's life and although I miss her more then anything I know she's in a good place "with her daddy", having a blast and I know she will be home with me and her brothers soon.
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